Monday, July 24, 2006
its all about these that im asking for
i felt that i've completely lost out
in this round already.
i'm no longer the winner or even a neutral player
in this game anymore.
there isn't any turning back point for
me in order to survive through the obstacles of this rocky path way.
been hidden in the dark is what i loathe!
i felt so sorry for myself that even small matter like
this was being
kicked out into a big fuss by me.
perhaps all my positive attitude has already
been overlook by you
into nasty & negative ones.
i am not happy now because
i've came to realised how much i've missed out in
some ways.
i am not afraid to admit life's just unfair and i
just cannot handle myself at times &
balanced out the good and the bad.
however, what im asking for is just you to give me all the
trust & assurance.
then,
i'll be contented enough
everyone of us definitely loathe the flaws we had in ourselves.
so do you & i right?
we're all human beings & thats when all of us always
love defending ourselves or rather keep our
pride safe whenever we feel that we're falling right down.
at times i might want to choose to run away and avoid facts of life.
how i wish i can go on a hibernation.
after all these that has been said,
maybe i shouldnt blame anyone for this &
i just wish you to be a tad bit sorry about what has happened
& i'll feel sorry for myself too.
anyway,
i've learnt a lesson after this.
like people always say.
"if it's meant to be yours, it'll be urs."
so i should learn to control my curiousity level from now.
i shouldn't know things which are not meant
for me to know.
though some friends of mine, we are not phsically
there for each other,
but i've realised that deep down in our hearts,
we're close & tight.
thanks for those who're there for me.
& to my darling CHLOE
dont worry you're not being blame.
in fact i'd love to thank you for always being there for me!
* * * *
on a brighter note,
i've truly enjoyed myself during the SUPERFLY weekends.
and then at night was boogie-ing @MOS.
it was reaaaal CRAZEEEEE!
91 visuals from sat night.
will post em' up soon!
back to work.
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